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Friday, October 14, 2011

命运

我穿过许多小巷,终于回到了家,回到了那不被认同的家,他们叫做寮屋。这里的环境恶劣,但是这是唯一能活下来的地方,这里也算是一个温暖的家。尽管环境再恶劣,也得生存下来。因为大姨……

你们也许会觉得我的故事好像电视剧里女主角的悲惨故事,但这就是事实。我的父母在一场惨不忍睹的车祸中丧生,死神当场就把他们给带走,从此带他们离开我的身边,害我成了无父无母的孩子,而当时的我……只是个婴儿。为什么会出车祸?没人知道。但是大姨告诉我,他们死不瞑目,死的时候眼睛是开着的。

爸爸妈妈欠了人一屁股债,在银行还没没收房子之前,大姨抱了我就走。如果当时大姨没把我抱走,我也许就会……大姨以前是住在豪宅的,但是前阵子公司倒闭,大姨又欠人债,只好把豪宅给卖了,我们沦落到流浪街头的地步,最后只好到寮屋去避风雨,过了不久才在那儿安定下来。

有一次放学回来,我听见大姨丈跟大姨说:“把她送走吧,我们没钱供她读书或是照顾她的起居饮食,我们连自己都管不了了!”但是大姨却哭着求大姨丈别把我送走。最后,大姨丈受不了大姨那可怜兮兮的表情和模样,才答应让我留下来。我不怪大姨丈,毕竟他们根本就没义务要照顾我,我凭什么要他们照顾我?

我把阿姨亲手为我缝的书包放下,然后在家里兜了一圈。没人在家。在这么狭窄的屋子里要找一个人不难;所以这里绝对不是一个玩捉迷藏的好地方。你在屋里的最前端说话,屋里的另外一端都可听得清清楚楚;所以这里也不是能说秘密的好地方。家里没有风扇,水也必须自己去找,毕竟这个家是不被认同的。

我坐在草席上,吃着大姨准备的咖喱饭。大姨的咖喱饭是世界上最好吃的食物了!吃着吃着……我开始回想起今天所发生的事情。

“你这个没妈的孩子没资格跟我们一起下课!”晓茜带头说道。
“对啊对啊!听说你住在寮屋地区的,那里是人住的地方吗?我妈妈说不要跟你一起做朋友,当心被你教坏!”
”啧啧啧,你看看你的校服,都那么脏了还不要洗,是不是要等发霉了才洗?臭死了!”

我的头已低得不能再低了,我承认我的校服的确是很久没洗了,而且每天都很小心翼翼害怕它肮脏,害怕它发臭。因此我不运动,不跑不跳,我怕流汗。流汗,衣服会臭。但是,前天有几个顽皮的同班男生把我给推到,还笑我“穷光蛋”。

我不怪他们,我是穷光蛋。我只是生气,我生气我的校服脏了,要洗衣服就得等到星期六,我还要熬过……一天、两天、三天、四天。到时大家都会嫌我脏。我不会哭,也不会告诉老师,因为我不要老师通知大姨,不要老师让大姨难堪,我更不要大姨知道我在学校被欺负的事。大姨已经够忙了,我要乖,要听话。别人欺负我,我就忍。

我不小心哽到了咖喱饭,不停的咳嗽,然后小口小口的喝水。咖喱饭,你也欺负我。想着想着,我终于哭了。这些年来受尽的委屈我要一次过哭出来,过了今天我要振作,长大后我一定能出人头地,让那些瞧不起我的人知道,我也可以很成功,甚至比他们还成功。

大姨告诉我说:“对不起,阿姨没有给你一个完整的家,但是大姨会好好做工,努力赚钱,买一个好房子给你。这些年来你受尽委屈了,对不起。”

我不喜欢大姨说对不起,她没有欠我,我也一点都不委屈,我很快乐……只是没有显示出来罢了。这份快乐是大姨给我的。有很多次我想要问问大姨,“你快乐吗?”但是看到大姨满脸皱纹,一脸憔悴的样子,我就把话吞进肚子里了。大姨不快乐,我看得出。他们说我是小孩子,表面上我是一个八岁的小孩子,但是我已经很成熟了,我可以很肯定的说,“我比别人成熟!”

今天大姨带了一些鱼虾回来,一年四季有几次能吃得到鱼虾?大姨真的是太棒了!大姨煮好后,我们都一起坐在草席上,开始祷告。

“感谢天主赐给我们这些鱼和肉,谢谢你让我们聚集在一起享用这份美味的晚餐。阿门。”
“阿门。”

随后,大姨把肉夹给我吃,我把肉放到大姨丈的碗里。大姨愣着了,大姨丈也呆了。“大姨丈每天都要扛重的东西,应该吃多点儿肉补补力气。”大姨笑着点点头了,接着她把鱼夹到我的碗里,我又夹回给她,我说:“大姨整天出海捞鱼也够辛苦了,多吃鱼补补身子。我没关系,这些菜就已足够喂饱我了。”

大姨落泪了,她摸了摸我的头,欣慰的笑了笑,但是还是坚持要我吃鱼。我吃了,她也吃了,他也吃了。我们一人一口,桌上的菜和鱼都吃光了,剩下碗里的白饭。



*Just story.*
*THE END*

kthxbai.

Monday, October 10, 2011

I'm halfway to heaven ❤ half way to hell

 Hey yo amigos! Finishing PMR TOMORROW! But... starting form 4 next week. Half way at heaven half way at hell. :D Do enjoy the pictures.


GOTTA GO. CHINESE ><

kthxbai.

Monday, October 3, 2011

1 day before PMR! Read this i'll tell you what's tips!

How many people would use the internet a day before an important exam? Me. Yes, i know, stupid. You might be thinking, what's wrong with you? It's only a day left, PMR! You've wasted this much time blogging instead of studying and reading tips?

True, what Edward says. I'd rather relax myself at this critical hour. DON'T and NEVER let pressure get to you. Pressure sucks, kick it away, tell it you don't welcome it. 

BEHOLD, a hideous picture of mine....

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Ugly and retarded isn't it? But i like it, that's why i share. FIRST TIME, me looking at the camera with such NATURAL smile. This is what i want you to do, to release stress, smile, why don't want to smile? because you feel pressure inside?

Face the mirror, smile, make funny faces, and stretch your face, if necessary, call someone to massage you. I bet you won't know that when you're stressed and all messed up, your shoulder is SOOOO stiff. 

if you want to emo, GO AHEAD, but close your room door and lock it, or your family might bring you to mental hospital. What do best is CRY, scream with a pillow covering your head, or else your parents might rush in and bring you to mental hospital too. Tell yourself, it's not too late, IT'S NEVER TOO LATE! What is late? there's no such word as LATE. Who created it? I still have hours. 1 day, i still have 24 hours. Every hour is gold, what is LATE? I DONT KNOW!

I'll tell you what's late, late is when you say I Give Up. That's late. dummy. 






I bet you know what i'm trying to tell through the pictures above. Actually, there's no SOLID answer for HOW TO STUDY LAST MINUTE BEFORE EXAM
HOW DO I PASS WITH FLYING COLORS.
WHAT TO DO WHEN I HAVEN'T FINISH STUDYING LAST MINUTE
HOW TO STUDY THINGS THAT I STUDIED IN 3 YEARS IN 1 DAY

SO STOP GOOGLE-ING BOUT IT, IT'S USELESS.

if it's too late, it's too late. Blame yourself for face booking and visiting my blog all the time. haih.

kthxbai.